Entry # 6. Love and Loss pt. 2

With November right around the corner and holidays approaching, I am constantly reminded of Katie. This will be our first Thanksgiving, Christmas and New-Years with Little Asher but it will also be our first without Katie. When you lose someone you love, the pain never fully goes away. I have found that some days are extremely more difficult than others.The other day a picture of us at Disneyland popped up on my feed and I envied myself in that picture. We were so happy and had no clue of what was to come. 

We had no idea that Katie was not going to be with us for very long. I find myself wishing that I could go back and tell her how much I looked up to her, how much I loved her and how I was so grateful that she was the older sister I never had. I become angry that her life was cut far too short. I live in the 'what if's' but I realize that that is not healthy. Katie knew that I loved her and even though I don't understand why she is not with us today, that there is a reason. I chose to remember her as the happy carefree and selfless girl that see was. 

(Left, Katie)

In this tragedy I have learned to always tell my loved ones that I love when we say goodbye. I have also learned that each day is incredibly valuable because tomorrow is not promised. 

So walk in love, do not hold grudges and bring positivity to the world around you. Most importantly, hug your loved ones a little tighter because some family do not have that opportunity